I had a camera. HAD ! :( :'(
I had a camera :(
Why cant I say I have a camera rather than saying that I had a camera :(
People, because of my stupidity, carelesness, I lost my beloved camera.
Its not that I neglected my camera, or do not pay much attention with it, I live with it.

I shared my memories with it.
I shared my perspectives of views with it.

She is my girl.
She is small but elegant.
She is smart and beautiful.
She is a semi-pro Lumix FZ35.

And, I lost it.

I am clumsy. I admit it. I scratched my car. Now I lost my beloved-missing camera.

Here is the story :


It was on 12th Dec 10' , the day I arrived safely in KL. My uncle fetched me at the LCCT, sent me back to UIA . Then, we fetched my friend and we went out. Three of us went to Masjid Wilayah to wait for my uncle's girlfriend.

Alright, I did not want to go back just like that. So I asked my friend to go to WangsaWalk to watch a movie, Rapunzel. Unfortunately, Rapunzel does not available at night. So I decided to watch Soul to Take. We watched the movie and while watching, I already had this kind of feeling, the one that is not good to be felt. Maybe that is for my goingtobelost camera that time:(

It was so cold in the cinema.. I couldn't bare. As the movie ended, I quickly went out as it was so cold. We went out. Walked out for about 10 minutes, my friend asked me whether I left something and I said, MY CAMERAA!!!!!!

He ran! I cannot run fast or continuously as I have anaemia at that moment so he ran before me and fast. He checked around and asked the ones who were cleaning and they said that it is not there :( :( :(
I was back there in the cinema after him, just a lil bit later.
I questioned myself. Why was I rushing, why did not I sling the camera bag, why did not I check first!!!


How on earth am I going to explain this to my parents? Ya Allah :(

I regret.
I lost my camera and it is so not ok.
But that night, I was very ok.. maybe because of I was shocked?
I was strong for a while.
2 days later I guess, I started to feel that I have missed my camera and I miss mycamera-mybaby :(

My other friend told me how to plead from Allah to have our lost belonging back.
This is the way:

- Tahu barang yg hilang,
-Al-Fatihah 7x,
-Al-ikhlas 7x,
-Selawat 7x,
-Ya Allah 3x,
-Ya Hafiz 119x.
-Doa agar barang yg hilang dikembalikan.

I practice it every night and day.
I pray for the one who took it to have a nice heart, let he or she feels what I feel.
I must have faith that Allah will help me and I hope for it to happen.
I am hoping..

I MISS YOU. PLS BABY, COME BACK HOME
I AM SORRY I LOST YOU
:(

Hari Raya Aidil Fitri

I am really excited to be back home for raya though I have so many assignments and exams before this raya.

Unfortunately, just now in the main auditorium while having the graphic class, one of the lecturers said that there will be no classes on 15th (5th raya).
Is it rational to tell a week before holiday? Ok, it might be rational. However for me I think it can only be rational to those who do not need to book anything for transport for 'pulang raya' or
maybe for those who do not have to book their tickets early just because they have so much money to buy a high price ticket.

Just so you know that I have already booked my flight ticket from Kota Bharu to KL on 14th.
I booked it early as I knew that the price will rise high near raya.
Well that is how it is stated on the university's calendar as far as Im concerned. I think I have checked it for more than three times and as far as I know, it states that classes start on 15th (Wednesday).

We will also be having a one day off on 16th (6th raya). So, can you imagine what on earth can I do on the 5th and 6th raya?

I was thinking, why cant those lecturers be more considerate on those students who do not live nearby. Its not that every single student here live around KL.

I really want to celebrate raya with my family. Or even just sit on my bed rather than being in UIA for nothing.

How frustrated I was just now that I suddenly dropped my tears and cried over this frustration caused by these inconsiderate lecturers. Sorry to say but I am very sad.

I miss my parents.
I miss my siblings.
I miss my home sweet home.
I miss my bed.
I miss my sleep.
I miss my time.

I Really REALLY REALLY Need Graphic Skills :(

OK! I am an architecture student studying at International Islamic University Malaysia.
Back to high school, I took pure science as my stream. I really dont have those skills in graphic drawings. But here, being an architecture student forces me to bare with those drawings. I like to do those... I mean, I love architecture! I am ok when designing Insya-Allah. But when it comes to graphic skills, I sigh.

I can learn I really can. I believe in myself of course! Insya-Allah. But for this half semester, I only manage to get B or C grade for my drawings. This makes me feel so down. Ok, i got an A- but only for a short essay!

Oh, just now I just collected my latest submitted drawing and guess what, I got a D! Just because I did not manage to make the roof tiles, maybe. Frustrated. Sigh. Tapi Tuhan cakap tak baik mengeluh. Ok Ill try not to..

I intend to search for activities on graphic drawings online.
I hope there are some.
I hope I can improve better.
I hope there are ways that are prepared for me.

:)

Un Coche Blanco :)

27th August 2010,
after 10pm as I remember....
I received a text message ' fa, k mas da nk sampai ni..nk tunggu kt mane?'
Oh, how excited I was..jumped danced like org mabuk todi hehe..
FIRST CAR mann! Who on earth wont get that excited..
Deep in my heart I was very thankful to Allah..
thankful to mama and papa..
How lucky I am..

Alhamdulillah that now I have transport..
When I do not really have to walk to classes which are miles away..
When I do not have to be jealous with those who have cars or even bikes..
When I can go back home safely in the middle of the night..
My mother phoned so many times before to know whether I already got the car or not
She last called when I am with the car..
She said so many things to me, advised me..
Then she passed the phone to my father..
I thanked him so much..
He told me not to get very excited..huhu

Now that I have a car..
I promise myself to give a ride back home or to class to those who..
Are my friends..
Or even if they are not my friends, if I know that he or she is in the same kuliyyah with me..
Anyone walking in the rain with big bags and t squares to attend the class..
Anyone who has their bikes or cars broken down..
Anyone that I could give help..

Just like before..
When there were four akak who helped me..
One of them helped me while I was walking in the middle of the night..
One of them helped me when I was holding one big bag with t square and not to forget with an umbrella as it was raining..
She helped me......K Hana as i remember..
One of them gave a ride back with her bike during taaruf week..
One of them gave me a ride when I was the committee of KAED fest..

I cant forget those people and how I hope all of the students who have transports to be like those akak...
Ill try to be one like them, Insya-Allah :)

ALHAMDULILLAH.

It has been so many times that I thought I am dying.
There are reasons why I said and thought so.
I repented every time I thought that way.
Because there are just..
Too many sins to bear.
Too many sins to pay.
I repented and I forgot.
I repented and I forgot.
Again and again.
When again,
I thought that I am dying..
I told myself to repent and not to forget.

Kala ku sujud ku menangis..
Terkenang dosa yg harus ku tanggung
Astaghfirullahala'zim.

But now I am trying to be a better person onwards
Insya-Allah.

I am so thankful to him as I am still here..alive.
Alhamdulillah.